"I suppose in the end, all
of life becomes an act of letting go, but what always hurts the most is not
taking a moment to say goodbye."
- Life of Pi (2013)
I froze the moment Pi (Piscine
Patel) uttered this line with his audacious and hopeless tone. I felt a sudden
silence as if the whole world sympathized with such familiar pain. I sat there
in a pretty shell of a body looking as if I had no care in the world; my person
as the only being who knows about the heart buried deep - slowly breaking into
pieces as the soul excellently and passionately endures.
I remember you, the person who
left without saying goodbye. I remember all the times you, who disappeared out
into the horizon, professed how I was sunshine to your every morning and the
glowing star of your every night. My heart starts to smile as I dig deeper into
the most amazing flashes of memory - moments of truth, laughter, and passion.
I will always remember you and
graciously smile like a defeated warrior. I am free of bitterness and angst as
life taught me that pain is a gift of nature bound to serve its purpose - it
was designed to be the very reason behind
every soul's ultimate future.
For whatever reason you may have,
I respect it. For whatever guilt you may feel, I forgive you. For whatever
regret that may try to linger, its now time to let go.
I was happy with you but the
stars whispered to themselves that we were not meant to be - maybe not now. If
you should know, I cried a few tears for such loss. If you should know, my
world did not stop when you left.
You should know that I am nothing
less than thankful for having such a beautiful soul pass me by in this
lifetime. You are pristine and perfect in every way. Your heart is amazing -
its unlike anything I have ever known before.
Thank you for the heart-ache and
lessons that you have taught me. I knew you were worth every bit of it since
day one.
I don't want to be one that
leaves without a word...
...so for the first and last
time,
Goodbye.
