Sunday, July 29, 2012

A Month Past 2012's Half

I have had a number of people telling me that they come lurking around in this blog once in a while - with hopes of reading another yet controversial thought from the deepest part of my idiosyncratic consciousness. 

Here I am, missing how it was like to have something to pour my apprehensions to. I come here once in a while, browsing through my words. I read them over and over up until the entry that inspired me to establish this abode into lasting existence. As I read on, I was struck with the realization of how much I have grown. The way I write may have inconspicuously changed but my thoughts and who I was have evolved into a more mature being that I have become. 

So much has happened since I last wrote here. Recently, it has always been about how I have been missing out on the writing and just quick updates of how my life has been. Even so, they have helped me to remember the significant things that happened to my life. I like to think that maybe, somebody somewhere - stranger or not, would like to get to know what goes on inside my mind. 

Its been more than half of the year for 2012, so much has happened and I could not believe how far I have come from being that lady who cried her heart out over shallow things. I met somebody who embraces the person that I am, I chased a dream and turned it into a reality, I have graduated with a Bachelor's Degree in Business Management from one of the best schools in the country, and a few months after that, I got employed by the Philippines' best real estate services firm. 

I met somebody who loves me for the person that I am. His selflessness wraps me despite my many imperfections and the different conflicts that come running our way. Since the day that I met him, he has always made sure that I am well taken cared of - he made sure to be part of every moment of my life. Ever since, he has been celebrating with me during times of victory, he has been holding my hand in times of defeat. I would have to admit, we are not perfect all the time - but its those moments of choosing to fight for each other that makes our relationship stronger. 

I chased a dream - the dream that I have been holding on to every since I could remember. I remember spending bus rides to and from school - daydreaming of my very own clothing line. I never thought that even before finishing college, I would materialize it. It was not as easy as I thought it would be. I felt the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Giving life to Christine Angela was one of the greatest fulfillment I have had in my life. I believe its going to be one that I would always remember in this existence. Its on-hold right now, but when the time is right, I'll put it right back and make sure that it will stand out among the rest. 

I graduated college with a Bachelor's Degree in Business Management. After so many years of doing the same thing over and over again, I finally did it. I did not get any kind of honor, just a measly loyalty award medal but it does not matter. I knew what I did was great work. How I lived my college life, I would never change for anything in the world. I learned a lot of lessons and introduced me to friends I would love to have for the whole stretch of my lifetime. This time of my life molded me to be strong, and it showed me a world where I have nobody else to depend on but myself. College made me realize how I love being around with real people, how I love working on things I am truly passionate about, how I get so complacent when I have to do something I am not interested about, and many more. After years of saying how High School has been the best part of my life, I now know how mistaken I was. It was after college that I got to see how it is the best time of my life. 

In a couple of days, I would have been working for Jones Lang LaSalle Leechiu for three months. I am happy to be where I am. I never thought I would be in real estate but as I spend each day working for this company, it opens my eyes even more as to how I fit in. I love seeing the world as I work - I love being in other places once in a while, meeting people and getting a glimpse of how their world is like. I love being around people who inspire me to be better everyday. I love seeing an image of who I can be and the things that I can do, and I love being around people who understand that we are all part of an organization with specific roles that we have to fulfill. I do, in every sense of the word, "love" my job.

I am happy with who I turned out to be. Everyday will always be a struggle to find myself more. I may not find pleasant things once in a while, but through the years, I have learned to keep my head up high. I have learned that no matter how things may seem so impossible, there will always be that rainbow waiting to console my soul and mend my entire being.